5years of togetherness

So.. If you guys were to refer to my topic of this entry, you guys must be thinking that this gonna be a jovial n happy entry.. Well how I wish this Is a happy entry.. Not even well wished from him.. We had a big fight.. I'm not sure if I can ever be happy in this kinda state.. I'm thinking of my mum well being, my nenek hospitalized, my baby, the house, my thoughts n feeling towards my in laws.. I hate the way she comparing herself n me, I hate the way she uses my mom to comment such things.. I hate the way they make my house as theirs n litter my house.. I hate the way they buy fish n put in the tank without asking if I'm alright with the fish.. I hate the way they said how cute my baby is without asking how am I or even congratulate me.. Nt even one of his family side came n visit us.. Only my mom n dad side was all concern about me.. But there is one bang izhar was all asking about me n well being.. Why is he so different from others.. Infact there are alot more but I refused to pen it down.. Thinking any these makes my head spinning more crazier.. I felt crumbling down.. Sigh... Suddenly I feel like I need a break from everyone.. Whatever it is, I am standing string eventho I cried.. Sigh.. I am not looking forward for this syawal especially going to my in law.. I am sure they just want to see my baby..