Emotional

I just need to vent somewhere.. this gonna be a very emotional entry.. First of all, i would like to apologise to hubby for what i have done yesterday... I am very sorry.. i dont know what came into me.. i was very stressful and feeling down.. seems that problems came up one after another.. I just need to be strong.. i have to stay strong.. everything seems to be so wrong.. i felt so down.. and most of all, i felt soo lost.. attimes hubby tried to do some help but then it turned out so wrong.. maybe it's just me.. with all the problems on my shoulder.. i felt very heavy.. having bad headaches these days.. All i want right now is my son... I just cant live without him.. I love him too dearly.. My heartaches everytime he cries and im not sure what he wants.. but slowly i will learn his needs.. but my hubby... sigh.. with his STUPID work timing that make him work like a DOG, makes him soo far apart with his son.. and i hate it when he tried to make things right but turned out to be so wrong..

what i know...
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