Pregnancy hormones attack me... (mood swings.. you hit me in the wrong time babe)
tahu buat anak... tahu nak simpan anak dlm rahim... tapi at the end of the day, nak give away.... tak tahu nak jage... what kinda mother are you?? nanti da besar tu anak, mak kandung dier sibuk2 carik anaknyer... makes the anak confuse!!! like WHAT THE FARK... puas hati bunuh jer... rather than make the anak hidup sengsara... eeee.... geramnyer... thats why.. aku pelik.... orang yang tul2 nak anak, susah nak dapat zuriat.. ni budak2 yang tak cukup matang, senang betul sangkut... tak paham uh... tolong pahamkan aku sikit...
lagi satu kes... pasal ni minah yang tua dari aku 1tahun... aku ingatkan orang yang lagi tua dari aku, fikiran lagi matang.. ni tak siul... da la judge aku... kasi aku such comment.. but the thing is she dont even want to try to understand... lepas tu ckp ngan aku, dier tak nak my explaination... abei i need your bloody judgement uh... kau tuhan kaper... nak judge2 orang... like WHATEVER IN THE HELL UH!!! aku part time per... aku buat aper yang aku mampu...
semlm patut aku gi work... but then kaki aku sakit sangat.. nak pijak cement pun perit, nak aku jln... so hubby aku put me to sleep.. aku da mcm nak nangis... so at that moment of time, ku tk pikir aper2.. otak tengah blank!! tengah tahan sakit... nak pikir aper lagi.. aku rest.. hubby ku put me to sleep... bangun kul 11pm.. bgun pelan2 nak gi mandi... i totally forgot about WORK... then da kul 1pm plus baru teringat.. check handphone, handphone da mmg mampos sejak hari FRIDAY... so da la.. aku leave it to rest uh... hubby ku pun suroh tak mahu pk2 sangat.. then tup tup ni minah yang hardcore kerje kat office ni, msg aku kat facebook... give such judgement towards aku... dont give a fuck on my condition and my explaination.. last2 ckp ngan aku, dier tak nak aku explain aper2... like what in the hell ehk?? dier tak nak aku explain then i need her judgement uh?? baik per perangai...
cakap boss aku suke kasi dier bingit everytime kasi dier hurtful comments, abei yang dier buat samer tak perasan!!! kan 2 kali 5 DOL!!! sungguhtakperludotcom ehk... bingit2 aku quit jer siul... besides working in SATURDAY is not our mutual agreement with boss... kalau aku tahu jadi gini, aku work 3times per week ajer siul... should i change to that shift?? maybe i should... or if not, i just quit.. at this period of time, aku tak nak letak my work as my top priority... my baby is my first, hubby, family, myself, friends then aru work... WORK IS my 6th list... so aku tk nak pening2 pasal kerje.. aku tak nak jadi hardcore... stress must not be in my dictionary... ok la.. aku pun tak lei blame dier... dier mane lei paham dier... dier tk pernah go thru pregnancy... die tak pernah go thru what im going thru... so dier tak paham uh.. da la malas aku nak pk pasal ni... aku rest my case...
oh before i forget its hubby and i 4years and 7months of knowing each other!!! loving him.. yesterday he was uber sweet.. well he is sweet everyday.. he even bought me this fluffy comfortable red slipper to wear at home... sweet kan... kesian hubby... stress to see me in this condition... imagine, he memapah me whenever i want to walk... he dont even want me to walk much.. he wants me to have sufficient rest.. we talked alot about work... he dont even mind me not working.. well in the first place, he did mention he wants me to stay at home rather than working.. haiz... entah la... should i continue working??
Please advice....